Everyday is a different day.

So I'm pretty sure that I don't have a lot of time to blog anymore. but when I think about it, I tend to have something good to say.......

A lot has happened to me with in the last year; it is insane. Since my last good post was literally a year ago, I figured I could catch up on somethings.

I was lost there for awhile, not knowing where to go or what to do.. I was wondering around with a broken heart, and it was leading me in all the wrong directions. I made some mistakes, learned from them, and kept moving on. Who would've thought that one person could change your life forever...

The year of 2009 was one of the worst and best years of my life.. I learned so much about me, myself, and I.. My strengths and mostly my weaknesses. From living in denial to seeing everything in plain view. Figuring out who really are my true friends, and who really are fakes. I laughed a lot.. cried more.. and all along I kept a smile on my face. But I will never regret any mistake or choice I made. I am a better person because of it. I don't ever want to live in regret, because then what are you living for?

For the first time in about a year I am genuinely happy... but I'm bored. I have to make a change sometime soon. Even if it means finding a new job, moving out, or just cutting my hair. I've been doing the same thing for 4 years. somethings gotta happen. something is going to happen.



Rest in Peace Grandma. I love you so much. You're the strongest woman I know. I'm so thankful to have had a grandmother like you, and to have been able to spend so much time with you. I will never forget all the memories from my childhood and having you there. You helped shape me into the person I am today, and I am forever thankful for that.

I got distracted

6 months down the road.....

what a crazy, up and down ride it has been.

i am so much better now. stronger, wiser, and happy. but I'm still growing. still learning. still trying to grasp somethings in my life.

met new people, made new friends, and lost some friends too.

I'm still an individual. i lost myself there for awhile, but i came back just the same. i guess you could say a "new and improved" version of myself. it's a great feeling :]




don't let anyone change you. be forever, who you are.

Spring has Sprung

wow... it's been wayyy too long since i have written anything. the last three weeks of my life has been very.................. lets just say.. crazybusypainful.... so much has happened i don't know where to even start.. so i'm just going to focus on this last weekend.




Last sunday, april 5th, i went hunting, and i shot my first turkey! it was sooooo awesome! it was about 17 pounds with and 8 inch beard. what a shot too! got him right in the head. haha.




Friday i went to pizza.. like usual.. then i went to kate and quincy's house(my second home). I've been wanting to learn guitar for a long time now, but never really had the motivation, till now. i'm so determined to become good at this. it's insane. i need to wait till school is out before i really start giving it all my attention, because school is my main priority. ANYWAYS, i had and awesome time on friday, only got two hours of sleep, but was wide awake for work at 7:30 the next morning. the coffee helped! by the way KATE, i have your blue coffee cup with the goose on it. :] i will return it haha. (thanks for the picture ashley)


Saturday i worked................. it was boring like usual.. but hey, i need money, so i don't mind too much. ash and ant came in and saw me, that made me happy:] so after work i went over to their house, helped ashley with a craft/home decor project, and then we dyed easter eggs! it was so much fun. i haven't dyed eggs in so long! my favorite one was my dinosaur egg, i took a picture of it:] it was really nice hanging out with my sister. it totally took her moving out to make me realise how much i took her company for granted. i love you ashley! even though we are complete opposites, i can always have fun with her. anthony too :] sooooo the night followed with egg salad sandwiches, guitar hero, and our friends phil and micha stopped by and hung out with us. it was like old times again.


Easter sunday was pretty laid back. saw g-ma and g-pa kosher, visited with grandma cathern, and had an awesome dinner my mom cooked. love them sweet mashed potatoes! thanks mom!



this week, as of wednesday, has been busy busy busy, again! school, work, gym, homework, guitar, school, work, taxes, gym, dentist appointment, homework, gym, AHHHHH!!!! i need to do some rearranging.

Spring cleaning anyone???

bang bang

yesterday I had to get out of the house. i have been working on a business presentation for the past 5 days and i had some cabin fever. i went shooting with a couple of my guy friends. it was sunny and beautiful outside, i couldn't pass up the opportunity. we shot trap, and i forgot how much fun it was. getting my mind off of reality for awhile is just what i needed. i also got some frustrations out while shooting the clay pigeons. :] i have my presentation today, and a mid term right after that.. then spring break baby! wish me luck.

It's time

I have come to realise that i need to be selfish...
Look out for myself
Take care of myself
Do things i need/want/love to do
I can't wait on someone to do it for me
I can't wait for him to realise...

Today

"imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and its better to be absolutely ridiculous, than absolutely boring" Marilyn Monroe

she is just amazing... :]














i'm feeling refreshed today!
i got up and got things done..
i did my hair different..
balanced my check book..
i think i'm gonna hit up the gym today..
hopefully by the end of today i'll be feeling even better..

why

why can't love be this simple?
i love you.....
you love me
............the end?